Tuesday, April 7, 2015

thin-gruel noodling

As the early morning flexes its rainy, grey shoulders, the sentence likewise limbers up in my mind: "It is easy to lionize or demonize the dead: They are no longer around to correct the praise of blame that may be heaped upon them."

I wonder whether to add this to the newspaper column homework I have agreed to imagine I have to do. The column is based in the premise that complaint and criticism may be my conversational habit -- "ain't it awful" tucked neatly in among the crescendo-ing arguments/observations -- but what is it like when I attempt to praise or place my trust in someone ... and name the name of one such someone.

Many of the most memorable and praise-worthy individuals I can think of seem to have cloaked themselves in the camouflage of death, a cheap-date defense if ever there was one.

My longing to trust and praise override all objections: I don't care if an investigation brings the whole business to its knees ... trust and praise feel good; I like feeling good; therefore trust and praise are both true and warranted. How's that for fucked-up and completely human 'logic?' I feel only mildly assuaged/relieved to at least try to see.

Oh well, there is a bagel in the kitchen with my name on it: Time for breakfast.

And if anyone suggests I "trust the bagel," I will come over and shoot your tires out.

6 comments:

  1. I've got a lot of tires here, but if that's what it takes to get you to visit... i believe and assert your trust in the bagel.

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  2. an ice cube in the seaApril 7, 2015 at 1:24 PM

    Genkaku,

    I read your blog a lot and enjoy it, but I also sometimes get the feeling that this is all one big "fuck you".

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  3. Ice cube -- That's not the intention (except perhaps on unaccountably crabby days), but there's no accounting for reactions.

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  4. ice cube in the seaApril 7, 2015 at 1:50 PM

    Undoubtedly it comes only from my own mind. Keep on keeping on.

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  5. Sometimes i think life is a big fuck you, but sometimes i take things too personally.

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  6. ice cube in the seaApril 7, 2015 at 11:06 PM

    Indeed it is. Look, a squirrel!

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