Whether it's the car keys, the reading glasses, or the disappearance of some beloved capacity or possession or person, loss can nag and natter and claw on what seems like a loop tape ... something that goes around and around playing the same mournful music... endlessly and without relief. There is no stopping it, no smarmy "closure" or "healing ... it just seems to go on and on until, with luck, it is forgotten or lingers like some rough-spot scar in the mind.
Perhaps the only healing investigation that counts for much when it comes to loss is an examination of why or how anyone came to imagine s/he owned something or 'had' it in the first place.
No threats, no gloom ... just an examination.
Hello teacher Genkaku.
ReplyDeleteYou havent lost me.
It'd be nice if you explained the difficult words that you use.
All the time until I am certain.
And dont need to investigate anymore.
I will take in your explanations, and i will investigate sometimes.
Partially depending on you until i can stand on my own.
But I might never stand on my own, and that is another case.
I want Allah so much ... i miss him, i miss what he can give me. What we have here on earth is nothing like what you can get in Nirvana or the similar to to Pure Lands Nirvana. I dreamt (not) once that I was floating in the air. If I could only be like that forever. Sex in that position, ... fantastic.
I miss you genkakau :)
I think we should live internally and learn externally
ReplyDeletePerhaps the only healing investigation that counts for much when it comes to loss is an examination of why or how anyone came to imagine s/he owned something or 'had' it in the first place.
ReplyDeleteLOL! You ARE kdding right? Even if ONE are hoplessly lost in the land of the pious, usually it's time to get the wife invovled to see if she's willing to walk away from the house, car, pension, furniture, etc. etc.
It's either that or turn into a schizophrenic Zuigan and ask yourself if you are awake, and remind yourslef not to be deceived (by others or by your own foolishness.
Ben, you are trapped in samsara.
ReplyDeleteYou are attached to life.
These are the traditional words.
I would say that ... it is not OK to keep someone you love near you (your wife) because of her attachment to the materials that you have in your life. Love and attachment is nothing the same thing.
I dont believe love exists, but it does exist as soon as one does the effort and gives (dana). And giving from what you hold dear to yourself, and I mean despite what you hold dear to yourself is real love.
Quite easily said, you must give the materials you have away in order to keep your love. I believe that possesions leads to evil. I myself try to remember that I dont want to get attached to antyhing and always keep free. Thank you for reminding me by your Ugly behaviour.